PROLOGUE.



IN WHICH THE AUTHOR SEEKS TO CAST THE RESPONSIBILITY OF THIS STORY

UPON ANOTHER.



At the corner of a long, straight, brick-built street in the far East

End of London--one of those lifeless streets, made of two drab walls

upon which the level lines, formed by the precisely even window-sills

and doorsteps, stretch in weary perspective from end to end,

suggesting petrified diagrams proving dead problems--stands a house

that ever draws me to it; so that often, when least conscious of my

footsteps, I awake to find myself hurrying through noisy, crowded

thoroughfares, where flaring naphtha lamps illumine fierce, patient,

leaden-coloured faces; through dim-lit, empty streets, where monstrous

shadows come and go upon the close-drawn blinds; through narrow,

noisome streets, where the gutters swarm with children, and each

ever-open doorway vomits riot; past reeking corners, and across waste

places, till at last I reach the dreary goal of my memory-driven

desire, and, coming to a halt beside the broken railings, find rest.



The house, larger than its fellows, built when the street was still a

country lane, edging the marshes, strikes a strange note of

individuality amid the surrounding harmony of hideousness. It is

encompassed on two sides by what was once a garden, though now but a

barren patch of stones and dust where clothes--it is odd any one

should have thought of washing--hang in perpetuity; while about the

door continue the remnants of a porch, which the stucco falling has

left exposed in all its naked insincerity.



Occasionally I drift hitherward in the day time, when slatternly women

gossip round the area gates, and the silence is broken by the hoarse,

wailing cry of "Coals--any coals--three and sixpence a

sack--co-o-o-als!" chanted in a tone that absence of response has

stamped with chronic melancholy; but then the street knows me not, and

my old friend of the corner, ashamed of its shabbiness in the

unpitying sunlight, turns its face away, and will not see me as I

pass.



Not until the Night, merciful alone of all things to the ugly, draws

her veil across its sordid features will it, as some fond old nurse,

sought out in after years, open wide its arms to welcome me. Then the

teeming life it now shelters, hushed for a time within its walls, the

flickering flare from the "King of Prussia" opposite extinguished,

will it talk with me of the past, asking me many questions, reminding

me of many things I had forgotten. Then into the silent street come

the well-remembered footsteps; in and out the creaking gate pass, not

seeing me, the well-remembered faces; and we talk concerning them; as

two cronies, turning the torn leaves of some old album where the faded

portraits in forgotten fashions, speak together in low tones of those

now dead or scattered, with now a smile and now a sigh, and many an

"Ah me!" or "Dear, dear!"



This bent, worn man, coming towards us with quick impatient steps,

which yet cease every fifty yards or so, while he pauses, leaning

heavily upon his high Malacca cane: "It is a handsome face, is it

not?" I ask, as I gaze upon it, shadow framed.



"Aye, handsome enough," answers the old House; "and handsomer still it

must have been before you and I knew it, before mean care had furrowed

it with fretful lines."



"I never could make out," continues the old House, musingly, "whom you

took after; for they were a handsome pair, your father and your

mother, though Lord! what a couple of children!"



"Children!" I say in surprise, for my father must have been past five

and thirty before the House could have known him, and my mother's face

is very close to mine, in the darkness, so that I see the many grey

hairs mingling with the bonny brown.



"Children," repeats the old House, irritably, so it seems to me, not

liking, perhaps, its opinions questioned, a failing common to old

folk; "the most helpless pair of children I ever set eyes upon. Who

but a child, I should like to know, would have conceived the notion of

repairing his fortune by becoming a solicitor at thirty-eight, or,

having conceived such a notion, would have selected the outskirts of

Poplar as a likely centre in which to put up his door-plate?"



"It was considered to be a rising neighbourhood," I reply, a little

resentful. No son cares to hear the family wisdom criticised, even

though at the bottom of his heart he may be in agreement with the

critic. "All sorts and conditions of men, whose affairs were in

connection with the sea would, it was thought, come to reside

hereabout, so as to be near to the new docks; and had they, it is not

unreasonable to suppose they would have quarrelled and disputed with

one another, much to the advantage of a cute solicitor, convenient to

their hand."



"Stuff and nonsense," retorts the old House, shortly; "why, the mere

smell of the place would have been sufficient to keep a sensible man

away. And"--the grim brick face before me twists itself into a goblin

smile--"he, of all men in the world, as 'the cute solicitor,' giving

advice to shady clients, eager to get out of trouble by the shortest

way, can you fancy it! he who for two years starved himself, living on

five shillings a week--that was before you came to London, when he was

here alone. Even your mother knew nothing of it till years

afterwards--so that no man should be a penny the poorer for having

trusted his good name. Do you think the crew of chandlers and

brokers, dock hustlers and freight wreckers would have found him a

useful man of business, even had they come to settle here?"



I have no answer; nor does the old House wait for any, but talks on.



"And your mother! would any but a child have taken that soft-tongued

wanton to her bosom, and not have seen through acting so transparent?

Would any but the veriest child that never ought to have been let out

into the world by itself have thought to dree her weird in such folly?

Children! poor babies they were, both of them."



"Tell me," I say--for at such times all my stock of common sense is

not sufficient to convince me that the old House is but clay. From

its walls so full of voices, from its floors so thick with footsteps,

surely it has learned to live; as a violin, long played on, comes to

learn at last a music of its own. "Tell me, I was but a child to whom

life speaks in a strange tongue, was there any truth in the story?"



"Truth!" snaps out the old House; "just truth enough to plant a lie

upon; and Lord knows not much ground is needed for that weed. I saw

what I saw, and I know what I know. Your mother had a good man, and

your father a true wife, but it was the old story: a man's way is not

a woman's way, and a woman's way is not a man's way, so there lives

ever doubt between them."



"But they came together in the end," I say, remembering.



"Aye, in the end," answers the House. "That is when you begin to

understand, you men and women, when you come to the end."



The grave face of a not too recently washed angel peeps shyly at me

through the railings, then, as I turn my head, darts back and

disappears.



"What has become of her?" I ask.



"She? Oh, she is well enough," replies the House. "She lives close

here. You must have passed the shop. You might have seen her had you

looked in. She weighs fourteen stone, about; and has nine children

living. She would be pleased to see you."



"Thank you," I say, with a laugh that is not wholly a laugh; "I do not

think I will call." But I still hear the pit-pat of her tiny feet,

dying down the long street.



The faces thicken round me. A large looming, rubicund visage smiles

kindly on me, bringing back into my heart the old, odd mingling of

instinctive liking held in check by conscientious disapproval. I turn

from it, and see a massive, clean-shaven face, with the ugliest mouth

and the loveliest eyes I ever have known in a man.



"Was he as bad, do you think, as they said?" I ask of my ancient

friend.



"Shouldn't wonder," the old House answers. "I never knew a worse--nor

a better."



The wind whisks it aside, leaving to view a little old woman, hobbling

nimbly by aid of a stick. Three corkscrew curls each side of her head

bob with each step she takes, and as she draws near to me, making the

most alarming grimaces, I hear her whisper, as though confiding to

herself some fascinating secret, "I'd like to skin 'em. I'd like to

skin 'em all. I'd like to skin 'em all alive!"



It sounds a fiendish sentiment, yet I only laugh, and the little old

lady, with a final facial contortion surpassing all dreams, limps

beyond my ken.



Then, as though choosing contrasts, follows a fair, laughing face. I

saw it in the life only a few hours ago--at least, not it, but the

poor daub that Evil has painted over it, hating the sweetness

underlying. And as I stand gazing at it, wishing it were of the dead

who change not, there drifts back from the shadows that other face,

the one of the wicked mouth and the tender eyes, so that I stand again

helpless between the two I loved so well, he from whom I learned my

first steps in manhood, she from whom I caught my first glimpse of the

beauty and the mystery of woman. And again the cry rises from my

heart, "Whose fault was it--yours or hers?" And again I hear his

mocking laugh as he answers, "Whose fault? God made us." And

thinking of her and of the love I bore her, which was as the love of a

young pilgrim to a saint, it comes into my blood to hate him. But

when I look into his eyes and see the pain that lives there, my pity

grows stronger than my misery, and I can only echo his words, "God

made us."



Merry faces and sad, fair faces and foul, they ride upon the wind; but

the centre round which they circle remains always the one: a little

lad with golden curls more suitable to a girl than to a boy, with shy,

awkward ways and a silent tongue, and a grave, old-fashioned face.



And, turning from him to my old brick friend, I ask: "Would he know

me, could he see me, do you think?"



"How should he," answers the old House, "you are so different to what

he would expect. Would you recognise your own ghost, think you?"



"It is sad to think he would not recognise me," I say.



"It might be sadder if he did," grumbles the old House.



We both remained silent for awhile; but I know of what the old House

is thinking. Soon it speaks as I expected.



"You--writer of stories, why don't you write a book about him? There

is something that you know."



It is the favourite theme of the old House. I never visit it but it

suggests to me this idea.



"But he has done nothing?" I say.



"He has lived," answers the old House. "Is not that enough?"



"Aye, but only in London in these prosaic modern times," I persist.

"How of such can one make a story that shall interest the people?"



The old House waxes impatient of me.



"'The people!'" it retorts, "what are you all but children in a

dim-lit room, waiting until one by one you are called out to sleep.

And one mounts upon a stool and tells a tale to the others who have

gathered round. Who shall say what will please them, what will not."



Returning home with musing footsteps through the softly breathing

streets, I ponder the words of the old House. Is it but as some

foolish mother thinking all the world interested in her child, or may

there lie wisdom in its counsel? Then to my guidance or misguidance

comes the thought of a certain small section of the Public who often

of an evening commands of me a story; and who, when I have told her of

the dreadful giants and of the gallant youths who slay them, of the

wood-cutter's sons who rescue maidens from Ogre-guarded castles; of

the Princesses the most beautiful in all the world, of the Princes

with magic swords, still unsatisfied, creeps closer yet, saying: "Now

tell me a real story," adding for my comprehending: "You know: about

a little girl who lived in a big house with her father and mother, and

who was sometimes naughty, you know."



So perhaps among the many there may be some who for a moment will turn

aside from tales of haughty Heroes, ruffling it in Court and Camp, to

listen to the story of a very ordinary lad who lived with very

ordinary folk in a modern London street, and who grew up to be a very

ordinary sort of man, loving a little and grieving a little, helping a

few and harming a few, struggling and failing and hoping; and if any

such there be, let them come round me.



But let not those who come to me grow indignant as they listen,

saying: "This rascal tells us but a humdrum story, where nothing is

as it should be;" for I warn all beforehand that I tell but of things

that I have seen. My villains, I fear, are but poor sinners, not

altogether bad; and my good men but sorry saints. My princes do not

always slay their dragons; alas, sometimes, the dragon eats the

prince. The wicked fairies often prove more powerful than the good.

The magic thread leads sometimes wrong, and even the hero is not

always brave and true.



So let those come round me only who will be content to hear but their

own story, told by another, saying as they listen, "So dreamt I. Ah,

yes, that is true, I remember."